Friday, October 9, 2020

#208

Currently listening to Secrets by One Republic, one of my favorite songs of all time.

Today I took this instax out of its box. It's a very pretty instax, a brand new one, in glacier blue as the catalog says. I've been collecting instax for the past few years. I travel with my instax instead of my digital camera because instax film has this nostalgic mood that is perfect for my visual diary. 

Talking about One Republic, I used to only like their songs, not a fan, until I went to their concert in Singapore in 2018. It was so random. I was in Singapore for a few days, because I needed a quick break from work. I was alone had no plan but to go to the library@orchard to read and find inspiration. It was my second day in the city when I felt like going to a festival or any kind of music events. I googled and apparently One Republic was on schedule the next day. It was an impromptu decision, I booked a ticket for one and expected nothing. Going to concerts or festivals alone is not a new thing to me, it's actually my thing. The next day, I arrived at the venue and went straight in. It was at The Star Theatre, so the seating arrangement is escalating up and everyone had a good view of the performer. The venue was perfect for One Republic's cello intro, it was amazing. Ryan Tedder's voice is excellent. I turned into a huge fan of them just in a few hours. It was one of the best live performance I've ever seen

It's true that good things come to those who least expected. One should also try new things every now and then!



Thursday, October 8, 2020

#207

It's been a long time since my last post, I didn't even know that Blogger changed its UI. It's weird but I know it's just because I'm very used to the old plain blogger UI.

*Grabbing my phone, checking the calendar*

It's the 207th day since my last normal work day before we're being asked to #stayathome. To me, it's been nice. I really enjoy this major change. I love to stay at home since forever and since November last year, I've been thinking about quitting my live drawing routine, or at least to be very selective in choosing clients. My clients are mostly from fashion and beauty brands. I enjoy live drawing so much, it allows me to meet a lot of people but it's also challenging because I have to juggle between drawing and client servicing during the event. I was 90% sure about quitting live drawing, even I told my team that I was going to have 3 days off in a week. I wanted a slow life in 2020. Then boom, Covid happened. Lol. It's sad but also it feels like this is God's way to answer my question. Should I quit live drawing because I no longer enjoy it? Apparently the answer is yes, I have to make my happiness as priority, so that I'll enjoy what I used to love. It's like the process of falling in love with the existing love.

Today I went to Plaza Indonesia because I needed to buy something. I haven't been going out for the last few weeks, not even to the supermarket, because I didn't want to and it's PSBB anyway. This 2nd PSBB is weird. Malls are open but people aren't supposed to dine in at restaurants. Poor cafes and restaurants, they have to pay full rent but there's no one dining in. I spent only like 30 mins at Plaza Indonesia. It wasn't that scary, but more to like sad. Why would the tenants open their shop when there isn't anyone there? Such an unfair situation for everyone. I decided to order a coffee from my fave cafe, Joe & Dough. Cappuccino made by coffee shop never felt so good! It's probably one of the best cup of coffee I had this year. I really hope Joe & Dough will survive this crisis, their DR JOE coffee and vanilla donuts are too good to ignore. I hope business owners will find their way to survive in this unfortunate situation. 

I've been feeling unwell, like mentally unwell. I couldn't focus for more than 5 mins and that's really bad. I was typing an email but the next minute I was sweeping the floor (?). Usually when I feel this way, it means that I need a refreshment by traveling. Practically I have missed my holiday break this year. It might sound ungrateful to some people but I really miss traveling, especially to Tokyo. I'm thankful for everything that I have right now and I am thankful that my husband and my family are healty, but this thirst for travel is just unbearable. At least for the last three days, I've been watching 'walking in Tokyo' videos on Youtube before I go to bed. It's basically a video of a person walking on the streets of Tokyo, alone, no conversation, no music, just walk. It's basically what I do whenever I'm in Tokyo. I miss it so much my heart is aching and crying. 

My only source of joy that includes a panoramic view right now is driving. It's my absolute cheap thrills. I love driving so much. I love speeding up alone while listening to my fave driving songs, loudly. Like, so so so loud. I did that earlier this afternoon on my way home from Plaza Indonesia. It felt good. I did an unnecessary turn so I could have two laps around Monas. I feel so much better now.

I got home and went to my studio. My assistant is taking two days off so I packed some orders from my shop just like the old days.

I'm turning 31 next month! Actually I stop counting my age since I turned 25 because counting your age means nothing (?). I feel like the older I get, the emptier my plate is. Like I get to discover more, but it makes me realized that what I knew already right now is just a micro percentage of everything that human could discover.

I've been listening to BIGBANG every day since April. It makes me sad that we couldn't see their comeback anytime soon. Even if they release a song or make an appearance together, are we allowed to have concerts? I don't think it's possible at least for the next one year...... *sigh* I should've believed in myself and flew to Hong Kong a few years ago to see their concert.




Pictures are edited using Nichi app on iPhone

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